Tormented by memories of you

I lay awake trying not to think of you
I'm drowning in my thoughts as I always do
Should I let you back in my heart
Just so you can rip it apart
There is only one thing of which I can be sure
I just can't trust anyone anymore
There's nothing I can do
I'm forever tormented by you
Leave me alone
I want to be on my own
You are taking over me
Did you ever even love me?
Words like "I love you" I never heard you say
I guess you never felt that way
I think of all we had
Now it only makes me mad
Blinded by all these tears
Representing all my fears
I wipe away the tears with my finger
But the memories still linger
Bound by the life I tried to leave behind
Damn all these tears I'm going blind!
The angel of death is calling
I'm forever falling
Into a black hole
Black as your soul
I don't need you, I can save myself
Put all these memories on a forgotten shelf
Now things are becoming clear
You are the reason I'm here
Maybe it's not too late
Maybe I can save myself from my fate
I want to see you mourn
Ripped apart, beaten, torn
Swimming through a river of mud
Cry me tears of deep red blood
And still I cry
Theses tears will never dry
See what you have done
And somehow I know it's only just begun

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