Cut Up Angel

Everyone thinks I'm all about smiles
and that I'm never really sad
they all think i am happy
because smiling makes me look glad

they always assume I'm perfect
because i never let anyone put me down
I'm always wearing a smile
never a angry face or a frown

I'm always skipping
and making everyone smile
i always think life if beautiful
even if its for a little while

i love my friends and my life
and i am outgoing too
I'm the one who cheers people up
when they are sad and blue

i always help people
when they are in need
when they lose i give them a hand
and i help them succeed

everyone calls me an Angel
because I'm the one who cares
I'm the one who listens
I'm the one who's always there

but i have this secret
which i hide under my smiles
i cut myself, i hurt myself
i watch the blood run for miles

i feel so cold
i cry at home
i scar my heart
because i feel so alone

i stand by myself
the world is never on my side
i torture myself
i have nothing left but my pride

i try to stand tall
i try to fight it
but why does it have to be me
who has to put up with this shit?

even though I'm smiling
and everyone thinks I'm an angel
behind the smiles i am,
The Cut Up Angel