To this guy

**I wrote this for Shane, I am so sorry it started this way**

So many nights I lie here awake
Wondering how I made this mistake
If I had only known that it would turn into this
I never would have allowed that very first kiss
But it felt so nice to have my heart skip a beat
The butterflies inside, the air under my feet
I wasn't looking for anyone- I was running away
I wanted my freedom, I couldn't stand to stay
Another day in the life that I was living
He was always taking, I was always giving
I didn't want more, I just wanted out
I knew before I met you, I knew without a doubt
Please understand the inner battle I am fighting
I may be saying this, but it will only be in writing
I can not tell you what you've done to me
You've made me believe, made me see
There's someone out there for each and everyone
I hope you understand why I did what I've done
You make me feel so unbelievable good
I wish I could tell you I wish you understood
I truly believe you're the love of my life
I can only dream to one day be your wife