These Tears

The tears,
That run down my face,
Can not describe.
The pain, I feel
My dreams shattered,
My spirit shot,
Everything seemed to be together,
I was finally alive,
And it was ripped away.
These tears,
I cry,
Not for myself,
But because he doesnt care,
My tears,
Are for his lose.
I just wish he saw me,
For me.
And the person I can be,
Not the failure he sees.
I still think I can,
And will.
Do something great.
I am just afraid,
It wont be good enough,
For him.
These tears,
I cry
Are because,
With all his stubbornness,
He kills a part of me.
I know I wasnt the perfect child.
I know I made mistakes.
But how else do I learn.
These tears,
I cry.
Are because you taught me.
How to hate,
Not to love.
These tears,
I cry
Are because you are blind.
And cant see,
Me.
Nothing I have done,
Has lived up to
Your expectations.
No one I have ever met
Has made me wish for death,
But you do.
And you are suppose to love,
And help me.
These tears,
I cry
Are for you,
And I am not
Really sure why.
All it would have took,
Is just one second.
To show you where there,
And you cared.
But every time I need you.
You turn,
Your back,
And slowly walk away.
These tears,
I cry,
Are for you,
Because you are my dad.
And through it all,
I do love you.