Is it w0rth it?

You told me to stay strong,
With everything going wrong i cant.
Its just too hard,
To pretend that I'm OK,
When actually I'm not.
For all you care,
I am dead,
A faded memory,
Slowly becoming erased
From your blank mind...
You hated me since that day
I don't even know what i did,
That was so bad.
You don't know what its like...
To feel the way i do,
To bleed the way i do,
To hurt the way i do,
To cry the way i do.
You could never understand this.
Even though you want me to,
I'm not going to reveal my problems,
Not to you,
After everything you put me through.
It is just too much for me to take now.
I'm letting go, its for the best.
All those nights,
When i got no rest.
The tears flowed from my eyes.
And the blood rushed from my wrist.
This is it.
wi|| it a|| be w0rth it in the end?