Forbidden Love

Last night I woke up calling your name
Cause each dream I have is exactly the same
I close my eyes and keep seeing your face
And there's a feeling inside that I just can't place

The more I'm around you the better I feel
But the things I'm dreaming can never be real
Cause even though you smile when you see me in class
And you're the only one who cares when I suddenly crash*

Your feelings for me are no more than a friend
And even though I try there are rules I can't bend
When you hug me, it's not because of attraction
But for the rest of the day you're a major distraction

If only I could gaze into your sapphire eyes
I swear I'd be the happiest girl that's alive
I want to run my hands through your silky, blonde hair
But knowing how you don't feel I know I'd never dare

So, as I lie on my bed thinking of you
I realize there's just nothing I can do
Your church declares how I feel is a sin
So, deep in my heart, I know I can't win

You don't know how I feel when you flirt with the guys
You'll never flirt with me despite how I try
This is a girl to girl talk that we'll never have
I can't even tell you cause I'm afraid you'll just laugh

So, I guess I'll resign to just being your friend
And try not to die when you hug me again
My heart will be waiting right here for your love
The love of an angel sent down from above

(*Blood sugar crash)

~Dedicated to Courtney Motley~