A Broken Love Story

Here I sit
Crying away
Feeling Like shit
For believing you everyday

those words you use to repeat to me in my ear
made me feel loved
and now they're far, far away from here

I wish I hadn't believed
Believed in every word you said
Believed in all those words that melted my heart
Those words that led me to my deathbed

My eyes used to be so bright at the sight of you
And now they can barley stop shedding tears
How could you?
How could I, believe you all these years?

You made me love a liar
And now you've made me a fool
For who I would always desire
Now isn't you

I think about how much pain you've given me
And its hurting me so badly
How much your not hurting
Is nothing compared to my pain, sadly

Why must I suffer with all this pain?
Why must I suffer for this lie I didn't make?
All because of you
Because you chose to be a fake

My eyes are constantly swollen
From all the tears you've made me cry
Don't try to make things better, you can't
Don't even bother to apologize

I think about those days
Those days of you and me
But then they come crashing down to pieces
Its now plain regretted history

I wish I could some how go back
Just to end this game
To end this pain
You would've caused

I wish I could somehow leave
Without killing myself or hurting the ones that love me
I want to runaway, to never see your face again
To leave, forget, and then let things be

I want to throw it all away
But I know it'll never be gone
You unwantedly will be in my memories forever
Those regretted times felt to long

I wish I could somehow go back
Just to end this game
To end this pain
You would've caused

I'm still here
After all that wasted wishing
It hurts to much to move on
After all that time that our love has gone

I stare up at that same sky
The same sky I wasted wishing on
To just pretend there may be hope
Even with this pain, for years, not being gone

Nothing much will change
But the wishes that I wish
A broken heart has left me
With painful memories

You are now the person
The person constantly in my mind
The person who has the key
The key which I will never find

I can wish forever
Nothing will ever change
I can't see the point of living
The point of living to me is now strange

Filled with sorrow, I cry
Wishing for nothing, I cry
Thinking of you, I sigh
The thought of you, I die

I can wish forever
Nothing will ever change
I can't see the point of living
The point of living to me is now strange

I've seen too many love films
And I've read to many love tales
Its funny how they all have happy endings
Love constantly fails

I can wish forever
Nothing will ever change
I can't see the point of living
I'm blind from the pain

You are my biggest regret I've made
You once brought me sunshine
And now you've given my unwanted shade

I can wish forever
Nothing will ever change
I can't see the point of living
Its driving me insane

The thought of you hurts
This broken useless heart
The thought of loving you
Is tearing my beautiful love fantasies apart

I want to see you suffer
I want to see you cry
I want to see pay
For making want to die

The hurt you gave me is killing constantly
Everything I have
This pain will never let me be

You can say sorry
That word won't change a thing
What I want is my life back
Instead of being alone and unseen

You've landed me somewhere in the unknown
Because in the world I used to live in
That place I called home
I was never depressed and alone

Did you take me here and left me to die?
Or was it my emotions
That constantly made me cry?

I can wish forever
Nothing will ever change
I can't see the point of living
My life will never be the same

You can say sorry
That word won't change a thing
My life will still be the same
Lonely and unseen

I wrote this poem
This poem for you
Just a reminder
Of what you put me through

How do you feel about this?
Angry or sad?
Just know you alone
Make me feel greatly bad

I can barley speak
As I choke on my tears
I can barley breathe
After all those regretted years

All I know is that you've left me
You've left this innocent girl in pain
What did I do to you?
Nothing, yet my pain still remains