Mommy...

Mommy,
can you sing to me tonight
like you used to do,
i miss being close to you

mommy
can you tell me you love me,
like you used to do,
i miss you

mommy
can you tell me everything will be OK?
like you used to do,
i miss it all so much, but most of all i miss you

mommy
i try to tell myself you are not gone,
but its hard to hug a ghost,
its hard to live without you,

mommy
can you hold me in your arms again
can you make everything OK and rid me of all my pain,

mommy
can you pick me up from school
just one more time
so i can tell you about my day

mommy
can you make me breakfast in the morning again?
i miss the smell of toast
like i said...its hard to hug a ghost,

mommy
can you remind me of what i really am
Im sorry mommy
Im sorry Im so ugly
Im sorry Ive let every one down,
Im sorry Im so messed up
Im sorry i wasnt able to save you

mommy
i'm scared luke will touch me again
im sorry i let it happen
but i couldn't push him off me
why wasnt you there to help me?

mommy,
but Im not sorry i just slit my wrists
and Im bleeding on the floor
and now i will sleep with you forever more

mommy
lets hug once again
let me sit and watch you getting ready to go out one more time

mommy
you didnt know how much i admired you
so Ill tell you now...
you were so pretty you were so brave
now Im sitting beside your grave

mommy
Ive took some pills
and slit my wrist
drink the vodka and with one gulp 7 more pills go down

mommy
i will always love you
and i will find you
and i will never cease
rest in peace...

mommy
i feel dizzy
i feel weak
i feel sad
i feel real bad

mommy
this is my last few moments in this world

mommy,
i lay on your grave
and things go black
with blood all around me
and my last thoughts are of you
the sky fills with death
and i take...my last breath...