One day
He came up to me and said:
"i want you to meet someone"
I was frightened
I didnt know what to think
But what i feared
Came true
She was perfect too
And he was happy
I was miserable
With a broken heart
I promised I wouldnt tell him
That I loved him so
One day he came up to me again
And asked: "why so sad?"
I remembered the promise
So i replied I had
trouble... in school.
Lies crossed my lips
In few seconds
I knew that
He knew
I was lying
He hugged me and said
whatever it was
it was going to be okay
For one second
I thought he said it
Like he cared about me
And loved me
Like I loved him
Then she came
And saw him hugging me
She did not care
So i was suprised
Was this what made
her different from me
that he chose her?
Tears started to burst
I didnt want him to
See me like this
i felt his eyes on my back, when
I ran by the sea
I remembered good times
When we were still together
Best friends
He was 7
I was 5 and he said
He was going to marry me
When the time is right
I had been waiting for this
But it seemed
He forgot
I stopped crying
I realised it is foolish
We were kids
Young and naive
I wiped my tears
And gathered courage
To meet him again
From far I saw him
With her
It all came back to me
And i hated myself
For starting crying again
This time he didnt see me doing it
So i wanted to make sure
He would never have to
I ran home
Wild and messed up
I needed to get away
I packed my things
Still crying
Still remembering my happy childhood
Still remembering that I
Still love him
I took my suitcases
decided to go
To my Grans
I figured she needed me
Now that he didnt
I didnt even tell him
Just left a note
With words:
"Dearest, When You read this
I will be long gone
But I want You to
forget me
I know it might be hard
We were good friends
What was about to change now
I never told You
but I love You
You must be thinking:
I love You too, but no
not this way
as You love her
I dont want to be with
a big heartache
I already have a little one
So im going to go
and heal it
Maybe find someone
Who loves me the way
I love You
And I really do love You
More than anything
Love, me"
I was again crying
I didnt know
What he would think
But I knew
This was the right thing
