Obsessive Compulsive

***this was about a guy I met and was like all about him and i had really only hung out with him maybe 3 times but i really liked him and then he just was like f you and didnt call anymore cause imma loser lol i know it's a little extreme for only a few days guess i was lonley or something lol i dont know i suck : )***

I wonder what you're doing
Why you don't call anymore
Wondering what I did wrong
It's not like it was before

Maybe I was annoying
Acted too much like a child
Now I'm hurt like crazy
Just wanted to make you smile

Maybe I wasn't enough
Didn't let you f**k me right away
But if you let me get to know you
I might end up loosing it to you someday

Maybe I wasn't cool enough
I couldn't hit it the way you could
I don't have as many stories
For me you're way too good

Maybe I wasn't pretty enough
You can do so much better then me
I just thought maybe you were different
But you aren't as I can see

Maybe I'm just not good enough
For anyone at all
And now as I lay on my floor
Everything seems so very tall

My walls are closing in
And I'm losing myself in thought
It's scary because I'm hurting myself
Just thinking is killing me a lot

Over something so unimportant
That didn't mean that much
I break so fast over anything
That hints rejection and such

Better to not know me
Or at least better for you
Abdandon before its too late
Keep unfaithful and untrue

Staring straight at hopeless
My sadness is a disease
Everyone is out to hurt me
Everything is meant to tease

I can't even understand why
I'm writing this right today
I don't know why I care so much
I know this isn't okay

I wish I didn't crash so bad
I hate the way I'm so obsessive
I wish I didn't get so sad
These feelings are compulsive