What is this feeling?
I talk about you,
I even accidentally write your name,
What do I do?
My mind spends more time,
Thinking of you,
Lives on that night,
That repeats over and over only if you knew.
I never though it would be you,
The on I would kiss and fall for,
Out of everyone it had to be you,
This isn't something I can ignore.
I feel like I am cheating,
If I do something with another,
I feel I will betray you,
Out of everyone I feel for a mate of my step brother.
I don't know how much longer,
I can not hold this in for much longer,
These mixed feelings,
They aren't making me stronger.
I can not say I like you,
To your face,
Your friends, my family,
I have to do it without a trace.
Everything tricks my mind,
On thinking I have a chance,
But I know deep down I do not,
Even to have another glance.
All you left me with were,
The memories of that secrete night,
And your crazy kisses.
And everything we did out of sight.
I mostly remember when you were paranoid,
About my dad, seeing us kiss,
And you wanted to move away,
God that is what I miss.
Even thinking of that whole night,
Makes me feel like crying,
And how stupid I am for not doing what I should of,
So here I am getting away from it by lying.
