Paula (my first poem online)

What did I do wrong?
How were you so strong?
Why didn't we get along?
I think about you all day long.

My mind went blank whenever I would see her
I could barely get through the school day
Unlike me she was so perfect and so pure
Anything she would ask of me, I would obey

When I talked to her I sounded like a baffling fool
I knew that a woman like her was out of my league
So I tried to relax and tried to play it cool
But I couldn't keep up and was filled with fatigue

Is there something that she wanted that I lacked?
I would have given her anything she wanted I had it
I would have done anything to make a good impact
She thought I was a prick and not being legit.

Now that I realized that I can't be with my only choice
All I see for my future is darkness, suffering, and pain
I will definitely miss those beautiful eyes and loving voice
Being without her I might as well put a bullet in my brain

Paula is by far the most beautiful woman in the world
I don't care what others think of her because they don't matter
People heard that I wanted to be with her and they hurled
But after hearing their nonsense, my strong heart did not shatter

I will always be thinking about her and that won't change.
She is so sincere and is one beautiful dish,
I know to some I may sound crazy and even strange
But being with her continues to be my only wish.