I've been looking for ways to get out
ways to escape
please don't try to help me
it is already to late
I know this is risky
but my heart is already scarred
I can't stop now
no turning back
I've already gone too far
my world just stopped spinning
I think that I am dead
all of these thoughts are spinning
around inside my head
I wish I could sleep,
I don't want to eat
I try to be strong
but I feel so weak
my heart is saying go
my brain is saying stay
I don't know which one to listen to
I know I must choose
but does it have to be today
I know there's somebody tout there
who loves me so
i can't do this to them
so I've decided not to go
although I love where I am
and wouldn't give it up
I wonder what it would be like
somewhere instead of stuck
