Pretending Pain

Sometimes I wish I could stop pretending, Pretending to be some one I'm not, I'm always changing, It seems one moment I was a little girl drawing polka dots on her picture of a lady bug, and the next, I was a slave to my many personalities, Always trying to figure out who I am, always regretting choices, sometimes i wish I could turn back time and start over, with all the Pain I've lived through now, But some where in my mind I know it would only lead to a never ending train of regret, Sometimes I wish I could snap my fingers and know who I am, with out all the confusion, But regret would be my only answer when my questions knock, I always learn as my life passes by, I learn things that no school could teach, I know things that are not to be explained, Sometimes I regret my knowings, But they're always there like life's big annoying tick, Sometimes I wish i could stop pretending, and just be me