From the first memory I have ever known
You were the one I wanted to grow up and be like
Until the day that you left me out in the cold all alone
And told me it was my punishment for not looking at you right
You told me I was heading for hell
And that I needed to become more like you
You called me many names and gave me plenty of shoves
And I still remember that window you put me through
As I called for help you just hit me again
I never thought a person could feel so much pain
You told me to drop my pants
And I knew I had no other choice
For I could see the blood rushing to your veins
I remember at my 5th birthday party
You told me that I was such a disgrace
And that you would have much rather had a son
So that is why you threw me against the brick fireplace
For simply having a little fun
Dad you made me feel so stupid and weak sometimes
And you often told me that I was fat
You explained to me that I was a worthless piece of shit
And that I was no more than a lifeless gnat
So I pulled out the sharpened knife
And put it to my wrist
I was so ready to take my life
For I no longer wanted to exist
The only thing that stopped me was the sound of my mother's voice
It was there inside my head
She told me that I had another choice
Something I could do instead
I tried to tell
But noone would listen
So when the time came
I was ready to tell them all farewell
Noone ever could see the misery in my eyes
And noone ever knew
Until I came to school one day
My face all black and blue
Then the teacher called D.C.F.S.
And mom came to take me away
Now I have not seen you for over 3 years
And I kind of like it this way
