My mind

My mind flutters through the world,
Intently picturing bliss,
Seems as though this is not enough,
Sadness is all there is.

Show a smile,
Hide the frown, easy enough to say,
Open yourself to world,
Really, it's harder to get away.

Told to move on,
And tried so hard to leave pain and despair,
Lightly turned my back to it,
& I still know that it's there!

Make it stop,
I want to let go!
Show me the end;
See, I say no!

But it all remains,
And it keeps getting worse,
Little bit by bit,
Does ilusionize this curse,

Over this time it gets harder to bare,
Caught in an unbreakable cage,
Kindly, please let me out
Really, I can't cope with this rage.

My life is broken to pieces,
I have nothing left for you,
Now all I have the truth,
Even that is blue.

9/9/05