Outcasted

No one can understand
Exactly how I feel
This whole situation
Just seems so unreal

Scared to go out
But don't want to stay in
Is standing up for myself
Such a horrible sin?

Girls love to gossip
And boys follow along
I used to pray for them
But now I'm praying to be strong

Everything I've known till now
Was all just one big lie
I try to stay asleep
To help the days keep passing by

To find out all my friends
Never liked me from the start
And finding they hate the things I do
Really breaks my heart

Half of them say I've changed
Which to me I don't see how
And it's hard to find out everything
And have it pile up on me now

The other half just hates
The things I do & what I say
But this is me
So why did you befriend me till today?

I admit I shouldn't have yelled at someone
Who didn't do this wrong
But the timing was bad, and I wasn't thinking
And my anger was just too strong

Some could call this karma
And others could say its a curse
But how come it's only happening to me
When others have done much worse?

I made it a point not to talk about
Anyone for almost a year
And I tried to get along
With everyone who lives around here

I haven't told a secret
and I didn't talk about a friend
Not even when others were
God, when will this drama end?

My senior year was suppose to be
The best year of my life
And now I'm contemplating
Going back to that well-known knife

No one has any idea
How it feels to be me
To be out casted by "friends"
And made known for all to see

It's that feeling of being alone
With rumors in the air
When you know that everyone's talking about you
Is almost too much to bare

So here's to all the guys & girls
Who've been back-stabbed by their "friends"
The ones who've been out casted
And see no light at their end

Just hope for better days to come
And don't listen to what they say
Keep in mind there's others just like you
Going through this every day

Have faith and know your true friends
And never do them wrong
Remember life keeps changing
And most importantly stay strong