I steady myself before I fall
I hit the ground, I hit the wall
My body is cold, but my stomach is fire
I mourn the loss of loves desire
All that I was has let me to this
My glass world is shattered with a kiss
Since when did I become so unstable?
It seems to me like a tragic fable.
Theres got to be someone I can find
That can erase the pain of time
Who can peel away the guilt
Every time my petals wilt
Sprinkle a little hope in my life
Rip me away from the grip of the knife
Tell me three words of affection
And see me with my flawed perfection
I thrash myself to the floor
Someones knocking on the door
Louder, louder, the noise grows
I feel pain like no one knows
My eyes are bruised from being hit
Although makeup can cover it
Yet makeup cannot hide
Swollen eyes from tears Ive cried.
I wrap a tourniquet around my wrist
My eyes are strained, my hand in a fist
I wait for the blood to flow
My heart is pounding a violent blow
I fear that if I dont leave soon
Iâ??ll only have the space in my room
The walls will close in until I combust
My bones into ashes, my heart to dust
Theyre all screaming my name
I wish that I could feel the same
I take the tourniquet off my skin
And I smile a shocking grin.
I look down to see the gash
The cut is deep, but just a slash
And if I can let the blood flow
I can finally let the pain go.
He broke my heart I often say
And people now just walk away
We havent spoken since that night
I wonder if hes doing alright
Sometimes I pray for painkillers to kill
I hold a gun and just my will
I guess I should beware of your deadly kiss
But how was I to know it would end like this?
