When your blood hits the floor......

When your best friend,
your favourite knife,
goes into your skin,
once again,
you see the blood hit the floor,
when it does you know that you will feel beter soon,
and that all your problems will go away for just a minute,
and for just a minute theres a chance that god is listening,
that he sees you want to die,
and he will let you go,
not keep you on your hell on earth,
for any longer,
he will finally hear your prayers,
and everyone may finally see,
that behind those smiles,
and the laughs,
theres a broken soul,
and a heart that can never be healed,
they will see that you wanted to die,
so bad that youve tried every night,
then you beguin to remember why you did it in the first place,
and by the time youve lost all strength u can feel yourself slowly beguin to sleep,
then you wake up in the moring just to realise that,
again god hasnt seen your prayers,
and nobody has seen the tears,
and your stuck here again for what feels like an eternity.................