My apologies

A chord has struck within forgotten parts of my mind
Correct words for emotions are so very hard to find
So many different things that I long to say
Working hard to find the correct path, right way

My apologies for I longed to stay the same
When I look back I realize how much I have changed
But understand the one you knew was not me
The real person I never wanted to be released

My apologies for the hurt the many hours of pain
I promise that one day everything will be alright again
I had hoped to be the person whom you want
I am so sorry to admit that I know I cant

My apologies for not being the one whom you deserve
For making you angry and losing my nerve
I had hoped that you would love me forever
For my darling no time is better than when we are together

My apologies for each cut, mark and tear
For seeing your stricken face when I release my fear
If only I could be the one to give you life
Remove all your agonies, your pain your strife

My apologies dearest, for I did not see
I was selfish wrapped up in myself, in me
I beg of you to release your sins onto my mind
I promise I am always here, I won't leave you behind

My apologies, for I am unable to do naught but wrong
I am weak, I am hurting, I want to be strong
Darling, I promise I will do anything for you
I love to hear you say "I will always love you"