Trying to forget

Trying so hard
to forget that night
i didn't know after wards
that nothing would be right

i know he doesn't care
about anything that happened
i wouldn't even care
if he was just a friend

I'm trying to explain
how hes hurt me
i don't think he ever
understand or see

i feel so broken down
all because of him
now everyone seems to know
what happened when the lights dimmed

I'm trying to move on
without a word to say
cause I'm sick of this
that i deal with it each day

i cant dream of him
cause it just makes me think
how pathetic i am
i lost him in a blink

I'm trying not to cry
over him at all
i haven't even got one
talking phone call

not 1 person can help
no one will understand
the fact that i want him
i don't need another hand

I'm trying to be happy
but hes putting me down
by ignoring me each day
and never being around

i don't know what to do
about all of this
all of it started
by me giving him a kiss

I'm trying to erase
all the memories in my head
i just need to forget
and not think about what he said

2 years went by
with him only in my heart
he probably wanted to use me
from the start

I'm trying to end this
without being so sad
i don't know why
I'm the only one who feels bad