Never be the same

The other day I did something,
I hope I wont regret,
I said goodbye to a friend
who I know I wont forget.
I'll never forget the good times when,
all i did was smile,
i made the most of my days,
and made my life worth while.
and I'll never forget these times because,
i shared them with a friend,
a friend so special, a friend so kind,
one that said he'd be there at the end.
But now things have changed,
and i cant stand it much longer,
many times i thought of giving up,
but then i grew even stronger.
i then figured out, that something wasn't right,
i wasn't happy anymore,
and we were having a few more fights.
Even though we made up ,
it wasn't the same,
we hardly even speak,
he hardly ever calls out my name.
Things started to go wrong,
and people started to see,
that i wasn't all that happy,
and something was wrong with me.
It was something inside,
that i couldn't explain,
which caused even more problems,
and even more pain.
i started to think,
and i knew what was wrong,
i tried so hard to fix it,
i tried for so long.
so this friend that i had,
didn't like me for me,
and i was sick of all the tears,
i just wanted him to see.
that i want things back to normal,
i want to hear him call out my name,
but as much as it kills me to say,
i don't think things will never be the same.