I wish I could explain it
but I can't, and I never could
I want to go the distance
but won't make the effort, and never would
I hoped that when I said it
it would make it all ok,
that getting out the words would be the hardest part,
and after that it'd all just go away.
But the words were only the beginning,
and after nothing was the same
I thought we could go back to the way we were,
I know it sounds so lame.
But I really thought I could fix it,
with an explanation, an apology, a lie
my god the things a girl thinks of,
when she's high
I know I must've asked for it,
and this is a consequence I have to face
but I'd do anything to trade spots with anyone else,
I wish anyone else could take my place
You probably won't believe me
but I honestly never wanted this
and I never expected it to happen
with God as my witness
I know it sounds crazy
but these things just come to me in spurts
I wish I could define the chaos,
I'm so sorry we got hurt.
