I know i dont have the perfect life
But i definedly dont have the worst
but how is it that it hurts
things can mean so much
but mean so little
the sanity in me is just chasing me away from this world
i dont feel like i should be here
why couldnt i just live in a dream
i have most of what i need
and most of what i want
but the thing i want the most
is to..belong
so hard to pass through everyday
hoping and praying itll be ok
paranoia fills my mind
the seconds seem to long
but my life seem to short
my life is behind a brick way
all because i cant overcome my fears
your standing in the way
and you dont even know
i have no place to go
i know i should be happy
and not take it for granted
but its just so hard
i love my family and the friends that i have
but once it all goes down the drain
absolutly nothing is said
in my life it rains every day
and the sun never shines
i guess ill never see that light
what i have is special
what i have is great
but what i dont have is what i most need and want
you of all things that should dont understand
i cant forget and i cant forgive
why am i here
im happy sometimes
but sad always
im proud a little
but ashamed the most
its so hard going threw life
knowing youre no where near perfect
but thats how its supose to be
life is a journey
i havnt foudn the treasure
ill be hard...but ill get through it
