I sit in a chair, as life spends around me. In such a short period of time, how could so much happen?
As i think about it, my emotions have been hurt and torn, but not all things last forever.
So the pain goes away, but my heart doesn't recover. There still are questions that haven't been answered, and nobody knows the answers.
And it hurts when I think about it.
You said you loved me.
So why aren't you here?
Why aren't you here to listen and explain why life is the way it is?
I go throughout the day wondering what it could be like now if only you took responsibility for what you did.
If only you didn't destroy me when S**t was effecting you.
Now I can see where in life you effected me, and I look and know the answers to my questions.
I can see now why my life was dark and nothing ever came out clear enough for me to understand.
Now, I understand why I was blaming my fears and mistakes on things that made me feel good, but only made my life worse.
Do I forgive you? Should I forgive you?
Maybe...one day, because if I didn't go through all the s**t you
put me through, I wouldn't be where I am today...Right this very
second...Sitting in a chair, as life
spends around me and thinking about you, and knowing that I would have ended up like you.
And right now you're probably nowhere, just regretting your mistakes, which is a Lifetime.
