Almost lost you that day
i knew it somehow in the back of my mind
but i didn't want to believe it
i had it all figured out
subconsciously
locked the bathroom door
started to slice and dice
tears rolling down my face
where had you gone?
we can save each other
hold each other forever
never let go of what can be
dreaming every night
wishing for you too come back
but knowing it was all so hopeless
the vein pulsing there in front of your own eyes
one more slit
could have cut the string holding you to earth
pull away
don't go deeper
think of all the people who love you
forgive but will never forget
i can't believe i couldn't help
but the mind overcomes all
so many nights
so lonely
regret eating away at you
you are meant to be here still
can't you understand?
there is something greater out there waiting for you
don't be selfish
go and find it
the glory shall overcome you
suicide may seem sweet
but it is not the answer today
i knew you'd be back
i understood so many things
when not hearing anything
i was blind and deaf to it all
i talked to you one last time
there was no goodbye
what if you had gone?
i would have had to follow you
to tell you what you have left behind
the nasty taste of what could have been
lingers behind
feel your wings growing from your back
and fly for me lovely
hands shaking in this coldness
feel me now
i love you
but you would have never known
as you lay dying
you would have never known
now live for me
and i promise
if the blackness consumes you whole again
I'll be there...
