The noose pulls tight

I'm rushed to the hospital
they don't think ill live
my wrists lay slit and when my parents arrived home they saw me step off the counter the noose round my neck.. before they are there i stepped fell and the noose pulled loose and i hit the floor crying and mad there was blood spueing from open wounds i try again, this time the noose pulls tight as i step off and with a sickening swoosh I'm hanging from the rafters in my roof my dad takes me down and they hold me close while my sister dials 911 i get drowsy and feel like the world is slipping away, I'm dying and my plan is working the ambulance comes and gets me this isn't part of my plan, I'm not supposed to live this long i see peoples faces flashing before my eyes mom dad sister all of them I'm just about to die BAM! they hit me trying to make me breathe BLEEP! my machine goes flat, i see a bright light and i go free from the torment and ridicule i faced in my life but i feel like Ive failed.. i let all of them suffer for my loss... those who did care others who didn't but the ones who did were the ones who mattered and i left them without anything, i left my boyfriend my best friend my mom and dad my sister my family it makes me sad, i turn a away from this horribly bright light and i turn to see the faces of those doctors who tried to save me, but I'm too late I'm already gone. if i could have a wish id wish my life wasn't done