You have no Idea

Rip the skin, make blood,
make me feel the pain,
the pain I cause others & myself.
My emotions become stronger,
my wrists become numb,
I lose all feeling as if I deserve to feel at all.
You weaken me, you live
off my bloody tears,
you grow stronger
with every fight you win,
you smile with
every frown I make.
After all the pain you cause,
how can It still sadden
me to see you cry,
but yet still be able to watch
you die in-front of my very eyes.
You have no idea how
it feels to cute away the pain,
to hold everything in,
feel worthless, pathetic.
You don't know how I feel,
to feel un-wanted, loved,
cared for, un-deserving,
to feel like I have
no use to live...