I Tried

Im so tired of trying
I dont think I can stay
Ive wasted all my time crying
And still I slipped away

I tried to keep myself together
When I all I did was fade.
Nothing seems to ever get better
With all the lies Ive made.

I see the truth now its clear.
Theres no one who can see
That I was never really here
And that person wasnt me.

Just f...ing kill my heart
At least I wont be tempted by the past
There will be nothing left to fall apart
Because nothing will ever last

There are ribbons of regret
Strung around my skin
Circles of blood I cannot forget
Because I cant do this again.

Deep, dark circles around the core
Still you just dont care
I cant take the pain anymore
Of suffocating in your air

Put a bullet between my head
Its not like I will shatter.
You never heard a word I said,
But I guess that will never matter.

Watch me crumble within
No more words will be spoken
No more blood on my skin
Because Im telling you Im broken.

Yeah, sure, Im doing just great
Can you pass me that deadly pill?
I want to meet my own fate
With all of my self will

Ill deny that youve pushed me
As far as the line was drawn
But deep down no one can see
This suicide angel has been long gone.

Brush my hair behind my ear
Ill break the barrier in your eyes.
Ill tell you that these are not tears
But the blood of my lies.

Black nails on a black edge
Everything is black here
Ever since you pushed me off that ledge
I have nothing left to fear.

Nothing can get any poorer
When the last light has died.
Yet, when you think of my private horror
Please remember that I tried.