Untold

At night when no one's watching
and there's no one to hear
I'm still scared to say it
scared to show my fear

I know you're in the next room
and even if you're not
You never know whose listening
I don't know what you've got

I've learned the hard way
to keep myself locked in
and never to look too hard
or ask too many questions

I wait for your laughter
or your mocking applause
I wait for you to tell me
I've given you just cause

I listen for your footsteps
and I imagine I hear you in my mind
telling me all the things I'll never be
locking away the me I'll never find

I close my eyes for fear of crying
or fear of what I'll see
and I pray that when I open them
the woman living this life isn't me