The truth

I saw you today
You looked very happy
I didn't know what to say
Cause I ruin everything all the time
You're pulling away
But I'm trying to catch you
It's just hard to carry all this weight
I never thought how different it would be
After getting back together
Well, nothing is getting better
Is it just me?
I don't mean to fight again, but are you trying?
Not very hard I by what it seems
For me this is too much crying
Oh, please tell what you feel
Sometimes I just want to experience the thrill
That you used to give me
It's my fault for having created all this trouble
Now I regret it with all of my heart
Cause my soul is breaking, breaking apart
No, I refuse to accept the truth
I am not losing you
Please get closer, closer to my view
Everything will work out fine
We can make the situation better
It will only take some time
I am letting myself be blinded by these feelings
I just don't want to see it
It is right in front of me
the shadow of what it used to be
Baby, I still feel the same
I don't know what else to say
You're pulling away
Oh, please bring it all back
You leave me in the dark
Sinking in loneliness
My mind just won't give me a rest
The end is getting nearer still
What the truth really is
I always loved you
You never loved me...