He made me smile today
made me laugh
and then i thought of you
of missing you
i felt to guilty
when i knew you were somewhere,
thinking about me most likely
and here i am
laughing with him
i got quiet
withdrawn
i don't deserve to be happy
not after what i did to you
i shouldn't laugh
i shouldn't smile
not when i know i hurt you....
maybe i should just give up
give up on everything
i know I'll hurt him in the end
i know I'll hurt you again
i know I'll hurt myself too
so what's the point anymore?
when I'm happy
i get sad...
when I'm sad
i act happy...
I'm not myself anymore...
i should stop
stop pretending
I've been doing this for so long
can i stop?
maybe the one way to stop...
is to give up...
