This place i live in

This place i live in
it just isn\'t safe
it\'s so full of sin

in my mind
there are these thoughts
they would take years to unwind

people look at me
like im a freak
what am i supposed to be?

something that im not?
something i dont want to be?
that doesnt work a lot

i act the way people wish they could
i dont care if they like me
if i could change everyone to be like me, i would

its like i have no heart
once i start thinking these things
i should be ripped apart

they are horrific thoughts
ones no one should think
their full of goods and nots

well since everyone looks at me funny
ill cheer their world up
by killing myself, so theirs will be all sunny