Just dont feel

It doesn't hurt so bad this time... Or maybe I just don't feel it...... I Know though that something is there ... And nothing can ever heal it.... There is only one light in my life..... And that is knowing your happiness.... And although it cuts me like a knife.... I won't let my life be a mess... It's not like last time.... When all hope had not been lost.... There was always that rhyme... Until it took what it had cost.... Although I feel I'm choking... I know I've hit the floor.... Will I ever get back up? I can't move anymore... I know not now my life could have in store.. If hearts we meant to be broken ... Then what the hell is love for?