I Can No Longer Feel

I don't know why I even try,
To stop these tears that I cry,
Lost in a world of despair,
And it seems like no one cares,

I have to be the shoulder carrying everyones tears,
I have to be the protector to save everyone from their fears.

So maybe if I pretend that I'm okay,
Everything will turn out that way.
Maybe if I fake a smile,
Everything will change to good from vile.

I guess you could say I'm a lost soul,
Already broken and no longer whole,
Pieces of me all in shatters,
Pieces of me to small to matter.

You don't care so why should I shout?
So let me rot from the inside out.
So maybe one day the rot will appear,
And maybe than I'll appear.

I have no more emotions that I can feel,
Everything I lived no longer seems real,
So I let the pain bleed away,
Hopefully so I can forget these days,

There it is my heart broken in two,
And there's no one who can fix it not even you,
So now that I have a heart no more,
Maybe now I wont feel so sore.

The child inside me has died,
Now that I'm so good at telling lies,
This is the day that the blood will be let,
And this is the day I'll try to forget.

~It begin powerfully, and by the end I had run out of emotions to feel, a lot like how I'm feeling right now actually, I have no more emotions to give, its like i have died inside myself, I'm rotting inside out, My hearts beginning to blacken, And there's nothing anyone can do~