Loving me

Fake smiles and everything
To cover up her pain
She hates the world as it hates her
There's nothing more to gain

Lies slip by as weeks go on
No one seems to mind
She's forgetting the future and her past
She's leaving it all behind

She wants to explain for all the mistakes
But she doesn't know what to say
She's scared of all the feedback
That's what's keeping her away

She soon realizes that she has to let go
And that's her next big step
It's not about the drama
or the punks, Goths or preps

No more self harm and starving
There's no point in doing that
She's not ugly or worthless
And not close to being fat

She's starting to find her place
And where she has to be
The girl that was all messed up
That girl was disguised as me

Learning from habits is harder than I thought
But I'm starting to become stronger
I won't break so easily anymore
I will last a little bit longer

Hurting is not a common
In my new day loving life
Thanks to knowing that someone cares
I don't have anymore strife.