Now occupied with should haves
I can only imagine how much it hurt you
To see me with those other guys
It was simple infidelity
Without the vicious lies
And when you finally walked away
I could not hold together
I was so confused and so upset
That you refused to make it better
And I thought you were the messed up one
For regrettably too long
But now I see
I was the s lut, the insensitive one
And I should not be anything but sorry
And I do not anticipate your concern
Because now I know that this hell is what I deserve
I wish I could take it all back
I wish I could have told you then
That I was petrified by how much I loved you
And insecurities were all that lead me to them
And now I honestly don't know where to go
Now that this awareness has clicked
I only hope that one day you could read this
And bear capacity to love me again
Because I am the one who is sorry
And I am not about to make the same mistakes again
I cannot stand knowing I will never get the chance
To love you like I should have then
