I'm sorry but I can't let you in
It's hard to explain, where should i begin?
I love hanging out with you, honestly i do
I actually smile, you make me laugh too
And i know that you care about me
And i know that i might actually be a little happy
And i like spending so much time with you
And i like doing the things you do
But i am afraid to care again
But what if the bottom drops out to the end?
But what if my heart doesn't let you in?
but what if i get you under my skin?
I'm so scared from the last one I've been through
And wow, if only you knew
But nothing you're told would change how you feel
And nothing will tell me that this isn't real
You understand my problems, you understand my pain
You went through madness, but you're still sane
You told me you're ready to be there
Since Jen left, you said you'd be the one who will listen and care
so how do i win this battle with my past?
How can i work this out to last?
How can i care when there's too much going on?
What should i do if at a moment i feel it's wrong?
I'm not sure right now with what i need
I'm not sure if i want to smile or if i want to bleed
But i know that you'll wait for me
And i know how much you want this to be
