I am confused and lost in this game,
My life as I know it, isn't the same,
I've changed for the worst and there's no coming back,
The will to live this life is what I lack,
So I am going to end my pain and leave it all,
Crimson red drops are about to fall,
Puddle up around my feet and the floor,
My next life will offer so much more,
I grab the knife, and my skin feels the blade,
I start to get light headed, and my life starts to fade,
I fall to the ground, and look up to the sky,
Pray to the lord, and ask him why,
Why did I have to use this knife,
I just wanted to live a happy life,
But now the blood has surrounded me,
I stop breathing and my soul's set free,
Up to the clouds and sky above,
I hope this is where my soul will find love,
As it reaches the gates it looks back down,
My limp body, with no smile, just a frown,
My mom walks in, and falls to the ground,
Her mouth wide open, but out comes no sound,
Her only son, dead before her face,
No one can ever come and take his place,
What have I done, I didn't mean it like this,
I never realized, I'd be the one you'd miss,
My soul decides that it will return,
And that this was one big lesson that I'll learn,
As I awake, I'm in this big white room,
The nurse says, that my mom will be in soon,
Before she comes in, I just ask why,
Is it really this hard to die,
I have tried, but failed at this too,
Left to live, I must have something to do,
A purpose in life, one so great,
The reason I'm alive, it must be fate,
My mom enters room, and tears are starting to shed,
She starts to thank the lord that I'm not dead,
I look at her, and she looks at me,
A weak and confused boy is what she sees,
I give her a hug, and say the words,
"I love you" is what she heard,
I feel her tears, and I begin to cry,
How could I leave her, how could I die,
I've learned my lesson, and thank the lord,
That I only had a knife, and not a sword,
For the sword would have taken me for sure,
Gone forever, death it has no cure
