Disease Addict

This is about being left behind and fighting to change that

You dragged my body behind your lies
Skin left torn and holes left inside
Tears mean nothing but bitter nights
No more hallow words swallowed by fights

And although I long to hear your voice
Seems Im left without that choice
I would shove each lie down my throat
Bleed for each artificial truth you try to promote

Still left with nothing as you turn away
Im broken, dying, beginning to decay
Couldnt you simply take me back?
Youre not something I wish to lack

Bite down hard and let it go
Impossible now that I know
Effort wasted, blood was lost
As I sit here, fingers crossed

Drama queen to say the least
Sadness rapes and leaves me deceased
Call me what you will, obsessed
These vicious feelings begin to infest

Aborted while you still could
Just as I didnt expect you would
Meaningless disdain conflicted
My words are completely self-inflicted

Glitter gashes blind my sight
As I marvel at the blood shed tonight
Quit waiting for you turn to speak
Listen, dont beat whats already week

Breaking point is broken down
Water level not high enough to drown
Stuck inside utter frustration
Shining though is my sheer desperation

Madness is just what you make it
Warned myself I couldnt take it
Yet I still torment my mind
Reflecting over just to unwind

Tenser getting darker hallow
Screaming I cant help but follow
Sucking into what isnt there
Feelings too broken to repair

Damaged destined to fail
Pessimistic I wont prevail
Gone darkened blackness falls
Claustrophobic inside these walls

Crashing into broken glass
Bleeding seems to last and last
And Im okay with all of this
Boring if feelings didnt exist

Addicted to crying and depression
Enternal self expressed obsession
Frustrated drowsy like sensation
Lost within my stupid imagination