Wishing

I think to myself
I wonder why I care
I wonder why i cant let go
I miss being wanted
I miss being cared for
I miss knowing you loved me
I have cried so much in these past two days than i have in awhile
The feeling of being so alone
Is really started to get to me
I cant take much more
everyone around me so happy
and all i can think of
Is I wish I was too
I see this boy
I would like to tell him I like him
But I know his reaction would be bad.
I'm too
Ugly
mean
fat
I wish I didn't care
I wish I didn't have feelings that he could hurt.
I just wish I had someone
I wish I was happy
I wish I could stop
Wishing.