Crimson pain

I am sat all alone
alone as usual
i need someone to help me
to save me even
i scream but no one hears
i have nothing left inside me to give
i want to give up
i hate it i hate this
everyday the same
i sit there and think about what would happen if i wasn't here
who would miss me and who would cheer
i reach out in front of me there is a shinny blade
i know this is wrong but at the same time it feels so right
i cry because of what i have done
it hurts so many people other than me
but its the only way to stop this feeling
the feeling of hating and hurting
i know it feels right
i am pouring crimson pain but it feels good
in a strange way
it feels like my pain is draining away from inside me
but then in about an hour it all sets in the fear and regret
the fear of someone finding out what i do
the regret of doing it
i hate this i hate me maybe on day ill end it all
but for now ill stand here tall
and live this lie i have for so long!