The promise that causes me pain

Sitting on my windowsill
with my legs dangling over
i look up at the sky
wishing it would soon be over

all the pain
i cant take it anymore
i sit in my room
not needing to lock the door

theres no need to lock it
cause to them in not here
i am invisible
none of them care

with the wind blowing
against my face
i look at the ocean blue sky
and see a better place

where theres no need
to feel alone
you've forever got company
new friends ,new life, new home

but i made a promise
to a good friend of mine
that i would stick around
not flying in the heavens
but walking on earths ground

so here i am
living through my pain
waking up to the same shit
over and over again