My Monster

by Princess09   Sep 17, 2005


Destruction and death
love to hate
smiles to tears
it is all fate

the pain is great
i want to be numb
the blood smells sweet
dripping down to my thumb

my eyes get heavy
and i become weak
i can't think
this stillness i seek

i just cry
it went too deep
i get tired
and need to sleep

when i wake
i start to cry
why did i do it
i don't want to die

i needed to get away
at that i succeeded
i took away the pain
in a slow moving speed

moms home now
so i must go
hide in the shadow
so she will not know

"Come here my angel"
she calls out loud
she doesn't no she is drunk
she is too proud

she does not know
it is her holding the knife
killing my soul
taking my life

every time she drinks
and every time she gets drunk
she is taking a part of me
stealing another chunk

soon i will be gone
and so will she
back at the bar
and in the sky will be me

she is coming
getting closer with every thought
but i am getting weak
for too long i have fought

my monster found me
mommy screamed and yelled
said everything was my fault
and i would burn in hell

i watched from a distance
my mother beating me
i lay there stiff
watched to see

i won't go back
so i fly away
never will i wake
not another day

sorry mommy
i was merely 14
i tried to be your perfect angel
but that was obscene

bye for now
and forever
you slowly killed me
which i will forget, never

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  • 18 years ago

    by AlexJ

    This is really emotianal and sad! Good job!

  • 18 years ago

    by Tess

    Well I have one thing to say- This poem has been under-rated! You deserve a 5/5 for this and that is what I have rated it!! =) Welldone and keep the writing coming!

  • 19 years ago

    by Megadrive

    That was amazing! so deep! it had so much feeling! Again the only advise I can give is use more ,.! Of those lol. So then the reader can tell when ur starting a new sentence and make them pause, also make sure u capitalize the 1st letter of a new sentence, makes it look prettier lol, and helps the reader know when a new sentence is beginning. 5/5

  • 19 years ago

    by Michelle

    I live with an alcoholic parent as well. I know how you feel. I would recommend you reading a poem I wrote called: "On The Road You Chose To Take." I also would recommend reading the poem I wrote: "Don't Think I'm Not Listening," as well, if you're a cutter as well. I've been cutting since I was thirteen. Your poem reminds me of my own life. I would never EVER want to ever take my life, and if I did, I know I would regret it. And, I know you would too. This isn't truly what you want; what you want is, love, peace, happiness, for her to stop drinking, to show you, she loves you, to hug you, and someone to just support you, accept you for you, and nothing else... And, you deserve EVERY bit of this just like everyone else... I will always be here to listen, if you ever need someone to talk to.

    ((((((Big hugS))))))

    Lots of love,always,

    Michelle

  • 19 years ago

    by nightschild

    Wow.........
    what a powerful poem
    im so sad :(
    well done
    ~*MaRy*~

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