It was the weirdest sensation when I put the metal to my skin
I hadn't needed this for so long, but now it surfaced from within
And I just felt this sudden urge, this sudden need to feel the pain
Of that blade sliding across my wrist, bleeding out my shame.
I didn't even give it a second thought and I didn't even cry
It took no effort to apply the pressure; I didn't have to try
I felt no guilt when I saw the cut, I felt no fear or regret
All I felt inside was empty; that's a feeling I won't forget.
It wasn't like it used to be, full of emotion or just pure rage
It wasn't like things are now as these words fill up the page
It was a new experience, and with each drop of blood that fell
I felt like I was someone new, with a brand new story to tell.
I feel numb now to the anger that once resided in my soul
I've lost my sense of touch; it seems I've lost all my control
I've lost all will to see this through and all my will to try
I've become so completely fake that I can't even cry.
It was the greatest sensation when I put the metal to my skin
And I finally saw my life just start bleeding out from within
It was then I knew it was over, the end of this life that I led
It may look as if I'm breathing, but I assure you, I've been long dead.
