It's all in my head

Tears fall on skin so white,
searching for answers in this night,
will i have the strength to fight,
i wish i did,i pray i might.
Rivers of life make their way,
down my arms,i sit and pray,
i pray my god will take this life,
taken away by my own strife.
Weeping gently in the dark,
What can i do?
where do i start?.
I sit and wait to pass the time,
and with every breath i make a line,
but with a smile i say 'i'm fine',
this life i have is no longer mine.
It's not like i have a choice,
i'll take the pain,forget my voice,
take this pain,but will i care?,
you'll choose a future without me there.