Being Me....

It's like I'm always alone,
When there are people around.
My heart is empty,
And coming apart.

I feel so stupid,
And so fake.
What these people see,
Is all a big mistake.

There's no one that likes me,
And no one who cares.
I'm so ugly, and oh so fat,
I know they all see me just as that.

Why does everyone seem to lie just to me
I'm misunderstood,
And too many people assume,
That I'm just so happy,
And that I'm me.

I feel as if,
I have to be,
All blocked up,
And unhappy.

No one can see,
This pain that I hide.
I tell them I'm fat and ugly,
And they don't understand why?

No guys will like me,
So when I cry,
No one understands
What it is like to be shy.

Sometimes I hold it in.
Most times they don't see,
That when I cry,
I cry about me.

I make stuff up,
But they all believe.
I feel so hurt,
And cannot leave.

When I think about
The guys that I like,
I cry,
Because they will never like me,
And I'm too scared to try.

I'm worried that I'll get shot down,
And no one will be around to pick me up.
I'm so hidden,
But no one will ever know.

This girl they see,
Isn't me.
When I come out
They will be surprised,
And finally,
I'll actually be happy and be me.