The pages I read

I read her poems
after I got home
I read about the things
That I really didn't know

I read about me suicide
How it hurt her so
I read about how she was going to die
And about how she wanted to go

I read the things she wrote
About the night I wanted to die
I read how she kept trying to think
Trying to figure out why

I'm the one who is supposed to save
The best friend who I pray to God knows
That if she ever left me
I would immediately follow

As I read
The pages so long
I couldn't think
My whole body went numb

I was so scared I almost felt
How she felt the night I died
I couldn't breath I broke down in tears
Praying with my life she's alright