At It Again...

**don't know where i am going...i can't explain my feelings...all i know is that i love him**

Shes at it again,
Trying to forget,
All the tears she has cried,
All the times she has tried,
Tried to make it work,
Tried to make it happen,
But all that worked out,
Was a broken heart in the end,
She cries at night,
But no one hears her,
She screams at night,
And at the same time louder,
She doesn't know what to do,
And where she should go,
All the things she does know,
Is her love for him,
Will always be true,
Him and her,
See they where meant to be,
But things happened,
Maybe they took a wrong turn,
Or did they drift away,
Who knows,
But she does know,
That some day,
They'll understand,
They'll take her hand,
And guide her back,
Home,
The place she knows,
And wants to go back to,
But what they don't know,
Is how she feels,
At night,
She wants to scream so loud,
So some one,
Any one will hear her,
And then theres times,
She wants to cry so hard,
That some one will notice,
But every time a door opens,
She hides her tears,
She locks away her fears,
She puts on a smile,
For a little while,
Until the door closes,
Then shes at it again,
Tears rolling down her face,
A broken heart that has no place,
She shakes with fear,
Wondering,
What went wrong,
Where did i go wrong,
Can i fix it,
What am i talking about,
We both decided this,
That it was for the best,
But no,
She didn't want to agree,
All she wants,
Is to be with him,
To talk to him,
But no,
She doesn't know how he feels,
Has he locked her away,
From his heart and soul,
Thats one thing,
She really wants to know,
Is he done with her,
Cause she misses him,
She wants him to know,
That deep down,
No matter how much he hurts her,
He'll always have a place,
In her heart,
He'll always have a lover,
By his side,
Even if at times,
It is not her,
Just don't give up,
Don't lose hope,
Maybe he'll come find you,
But maybe not,
Just don't give up hope,
He'll find his way home,
Don't cry at night,
When no ones home,
Dear little child,
Be safe and warm,
He'll be home soon,
To welcome you into his arms...

**i don't know why i wrote this and what its for but i know that I'm this little girl I'm at it again crying at night all this is true i wanna hold my pillow tight i miss him so much i wanna scream at night but i do cry and when a door opens and they look into my eyes the tears are gone theres a smile on my face until they are gone sorrow and sadness takes the smiles place "I miss you billy"...**