Kill Me

Too much for me to handle,
Attempted the unbreakable force of a cut.
Pain streamed through me and
Then I thought what would happen.
Didn't want to lose the friends,
That took a lifetime to find, to trust.

Is anyone listening to what I say?
It's just a blur in my mind, I don't know.
Between two walls,
Undecided on where to do; what to do with me.
Hiding in my room,
Singing a happy song, go away; leave.

Stuck in a world where I'm not wanted,
With me fearing the worst.
Alone, all by myself I need to fix this,
Words dead, with no life, you don't understand.
Red marks on my arms, my hands,
The signals that I've had enough.

Don't know if I want to survive,
It's not like anything's going to change.
Nothing did before what I believed you,
And there's no way I will trust again.
Take me to a place where they can erase my past,
Put in a new mind of emotions.

Re arranged, cut the old out,
And colour the scars into my skin.
No reply from above,
No assistance, no clue what to do.
Silence in a room filled with people,
I'm alone, cutting away the dead cells in me.

I want out of this world. Kill me.